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fear

2006-07-01T09:26:00.000+10:00

life is full of fear.... the main thing is how we deal with the fear when it comes..... for fear is not just fear of losing my life.. but also all worries that i have...... ive known the truth...... ive known the way to deal with it...... but doing according to 'the way' is hard.... our mind is the battlefield....

insecure

2005-11-13T12:14:00.000+11:00

just by being home makes me secure... insecurity has been with me for a long time without me realising it... what can i do to make myself feel secure? can there be anything in this world that i could buy to make myself secure... or is it someone that i should meet... or one that should be with me all the time? ive been looking for the answer... and i really need this answer... 'cause ive had enough of this... i cant bear it anymore... hope this endurance will not last any longer...

October 29, 2005 -- What did you say?

2005-10-29T11:20:00.000+10:00

At Santa Clara University in California, a researcher conducted a study of 1,500 business managers that revealed what workers value most in a supervisor. Employees said they respected a leader who shows competence, has the ability to inspire workers, and is skillful in providing direction.
But there was a fourth quality they admired even more—integrity. Above all else, workers wanted a manager whose word was good, one who was known for his honesty, and one whom they could trust.
While this finding holds special significance for Christian managers, it also says something to everyone who claims to be a follower of Jesus. Integrity should characterize all believers, no matter what their position may be.
According to Psalm 15, truth is at the heart of every word and deed of a godly person. Since the God of the Bible always keeps His word, it follows that a godly person will be known as one who does what he says he will do.
We all need to be more careful about our integrity. Do those around us admire us for our honesty? Does the Lord see us faithfully doing what we said we would do—even when it hurts? (Psalm 15:4). —Mart De Haan

If your word is "good as gold"And your actions prove it true,Others hearing what you say Know they can depend on you. —Hess

Only by being on the level can we rise in the eyes of others.

2005-10-25T17:34:00.000+10:00

its been a while since i blog. yeah eniwei.. lifes been hard for me this semester. with my sis going back to indo n living alone in this house.. its kinda hard though to live alone... i tot living alone would b better or something... but nah.. i was mistaken.... more to that, im doing a semester-long project which according to me is pretty hard at first.... well its not that hard though after i did it... its kinda confusing at first coz we had no clue of what is expected off us.... but after we got the idea we r rite... its just more time-consuming rather than super-hard subject.... taxation was another one.... its a subject that u got to keep reading every week n attempt questions..... coz if not ull get lost.... n end up not knowing enithing about the exam...so yeah life was not easy for me for the couple of months.... but now its even worse.... that project that i did was done in group of 8..... 2 of the 8 was really crazy.... well i should say not right mentally.... well he first forced us to be his friends by asking us out.... yes its fine... but its not fine when he told us the night before and forcing us to cancel our plan and go with them...... first that really pissed the other 6.... next thing i know.... the project manager called me up when i was having dinner @ around 10.30 n said.."they sent us an email, a massive long one... reviewing our performance individually".... so i went.... yeah yeah i dun give a damn about that.... i just want to get the project done n over with... but i was so upset that nite.... really man...... i just dun get it.... the more i think of it now.... i think they r just too childish.... by doin that what advantage could they get..... they even called us at around 2.30 am that nite to just shout n shout..... well who on earth would do such a thing.........eniwei i thought that email was only sent to us (the project group).... i found out on monday morning that they actually posted the email on the uni notice board for everyone to see... well thats not ok anymore...... they also forward the email to anyone in the uni that they dun even know....... that really kinda defaming us...... n one of the group member got the phone call which is kinda racial comment... so he was not happy about that n now we r in da process of telling the faculty to what had happened...... n here is the quote of the sentence that they said about me:

"U R a comp SCI nerd. Y because u don’t wana socialise with us. Is it because u r racist n don’t wana go out with any1 that is not Asian."

im just giving my thoughts at the moment

2005-09-08T10:22:00.000+10:00

its been pleasing n my pleasure to think about you. evry time i think about you, i just want to b with you. i just cant help it. i just want to b right there whenever n where ever you are. but it just kills me when i look around the surrounding. but as soon as i look up to you, the surrounding just vanishes. n then the feeling that i have been waiting for just struck me n bring me down to my knees. then i begin to think. why am i kneeling n shedding tears? is it because i am sad? or is it because i am amazed? or was it just another crocodile tears? but the feeling inside me just keep growing filling up my chest. then i close my eyes to enjoy the overwhelming feeling. i felt that someones is watching me.

but what i dont realize is that as soon as i open my eyes, the world is not as pleasing as the feeling that i experienced. or is it better to just close my eyes n enjoy that feeling? or im destined to live in this world?

just givin' it some thought. hoping the world could b a better place to live :)

its good to b free

2005-05-16T13:56:00.000+10:00

the hardest thing in life is to b in bondage.... seriously...... unless you take pleasure in it.... being free from uni is what im looking forward to..... haha...... im left with one more assign then ill be on my to finals...... wow..... another year to go.... seems long for me..... im supposed to have finish my bachelor..... but look what ive done...... aaaarrrrrgggghhhhhh....... haha... eniwei.... from now on i just want to b free... free as a bird..... la la la la.....

so long......

2005-05-09T00:04:00.000+10:00

phew... its already been a month.... haha im writing this blog again coz lish just reminded me to write again....... haha alrite.... i think this blog is good.... seriously... i learn my mistakes(hopefullly) by writing this blog... well.... hm for now i dun have enithing to say... CJ went back to malaysia... so now only me n sis working at the resto..... todays mothers day...... resto not realli busy..... but i wonder how come we can make a los....... i think ive not taken money from one of the customers...... eniwei..... assignments coming due....... n also final is round the corner.... but the highlight in this blog..... is that i noe whos been miss-calling me.... i mean i got the clue...... either she still likes me or just checking me up........ eniwei i still have heart for u.... seriously... but for our best...... u go have relationship with other man.... i think its better...... rather than me breakin ur heart again n again.... i think tts all....... till here.... so long.....

hm

2005-04-12T13:38:00.000+10:00

well i guess most of my uni frens hav either graduated or gone back for good.... i guess we r suppposed to b left alone n walk this life on our own..... haiz..... but i dunnoe how come i felt so dependant... but i guess ill have to start a new journey

sydney trip 19th

2005-03-13T19:56:00.000+11:00

gotta wake up pretty early to go to city.... ask wil to drive me to city..... then went to the bus... first day lunch at KFC...... then we went to this dog thingy.... im not sure what was tt... but really its was crap..... then we set off to Canberra..... reaching canberra... we went to the watch tower....from there we can have a look at the city of Canberra....after tt we're of to the embassy of china.... damn..... all da cars there was merce..... but then when it came to the embassy of indo...... all da cars dere were all 'lau ya' cars... haiz so pahi se..... but what to do.... not my car.... then we went for dinner...... in realli2 crap chi resto..... the table was dirty n the place was a stinko...... dunnoe how they can make business in an environment like tt....... after da dinner we went to hotel to rest.... tt was da first night...... second night we went around the parliament house.... n bla bla bla everywhere related to the parliament... then we set off to sydney(at last)..... but on da way we stopped at this huge temple......... its huge n its beautiful..... then we're off to sydney..... we had dinner in this chines resto.... close to the markey city..... then again back to hotel(end of 2nd night)....to b cont.....

its been a month 3 days......

2005-03-11T15:30:00.000+11:00

time flies.. its been 33 days since my parents came.... i felt like its just a week.... i realli miss them so much... feel like crying.... hikz hikz hikz..... yeah they came to oz on da 7th.... 2 days before chinese new year n my (authentic)b day... hm..... when they came we went straight to box hill for breakie... then back to home.... coz my sis nid to work....... n so they just slept at home..... then on da 9th we went to city together..... looking for travel agent coz my dad said he wanted to go to gold coast as he had never been there..... then after tt we went for lunch... well a late lunch...... around 2-3pm...... then after tt we went home..... i was driving with my bro..... we went straight home..... we were waiting how come it took them so long to reach home.... but then i was using the comp when they call me to go downstairs..... n yeah they bought me a bday cake.... n my sis even bought a candle tt can even play the bday song......hm yeah well actually its not a cake...its ice-cream cake... its nice... i like it...... yeah then for the rest of other days..... we went shopping the whole time..... n also to doctor....... then on da 17 it was jacsen's bbq... as usual we had the bbq at bundoora park..... no other place than tt.... coz we went to la trobe moat..... n the bbq grilling machine din work....... so me n jac went to northland to buy all da meat..... n not to forget some beer.... hehe....... was fun having the bbq but sad to know tt tt was the last ime we could have fun with jac(my twin brother) hehehe...... tts what my fren said.... but then the meat was not enough.... then nic went to buy some more...... but way too much... at the end we couldn finish them....... we played soccer in the park..... but then coz of me everyone stop playing..... i kick the fallen stalk... then it poked to my foot..... right on da palm..... damn painful.... cant even walk properly.... gotta go home quick with my bro to put some ointment..... at home my parents surprised but its ok.... its life hehe... not long after tt....... they all(jac wil leo herry n hardy) came to my house.... n i was like..... what r they doing??!!!..... they asked me to go watch movie with them... hide n seek.... but i was still in great pain... remembering tt it was for jac...... i forced myself...... well..... they sat down..... talking to my dad while i helped my mom to serve ice cream to them.......... then my mom gave them 'hong pao'.... then we went for d movie then ct to play CS... haiz i was dead tired but no choice.... i was forced to again...... at the end i reached home at around 2am.....

im gonna miss u my dear fren...

2005-02-16T23:15:00.000+11:00

its so sad rite.... everytime there's gonna b good bye said to some1 u treasure.. hm.. i guess this time its gonna b my dear fren... jacsen..... haiz.... really gonna miss him..... all da times spent in da lab... im really gonna miss those times..... hikz..... hikz.... n some more i cant even send him to airport.... wakz...... damn.... ill b in sydney while he spends his time on the plane...... hm...... im recalling all da times weve had during the past three yrs.... woah..... realli man.... i can cry........ its da same feeling ive had while leaving my frens in sg.... ok dun wan to talk about it now.. hikz hikz hikz...

what ya doing man???

2005-02-12T22:31:00.000+11:00

what u doing?? y do u have to b so kind towards people?? do they care about you??? not at all!!! then y r u being so nice to them??? what the @#$%!!! i hate moiself!!!! damn.....

ok fine.....

2005-02-12T22:10:00.000+11:00

am i being too generous tt everyone starts to take advantage of me??hmm... im still wondering..... should i b nice or just ignore them.. im still confused... but something strikes me.... i dunnoe where ive read this from but... i still remember it very well..... "you will not b able to satisfy everyone that u noe"... i think its true..... well...... i dun wan to make a mistake..... so i got to choose wisely here...... damn..... im confused...... i dun wan to b clown..... where everyone starts taking advantage of me..... see im just repeating myself here...... eniwei.... i got lotsa things to say but prob not now... may b sometimes later in life where i feel much better......

life goes on huh??

2005-02-02T01:14:00.000+11:00

ok i think i better write something about whats happening here..... something which is nice..... something which is happy-ending...... n not something which is sad... coz of someone requested me to do so....... alrite my bro is already here.... then my parenst r coming this monday..... i hope it would b some kind of great time togehter..... eniwei..... grace is coming back soon..... then william also....... woah good man...... i hope i can meet them asap.... also my parents not to miss out....... then after tt gus....... hm...... i dun noe what i have to write in this blog enimore..... nothing drives me to write my thoughts.... everything seems blown away...... but i got to move on..... may b im being selfish.... or may b im being over reactive..... nothing can b done to undo the past..... whats left is the future which we can build...... our hopes, our goals n our future lie on our hands...... n everything has to start from now on........ i think im being a poet here which ive no intention of being one..... eniwei... life gotta go on....... is it or iz it??

2005-02-02T01:12:00.000+11:00

Sovereign Hill, 2005

2005-02-02T01:09:00.000+11:00

Food Festival, 2005

2005-02-02T01:07:00.000+11:00

The Twelve Apostles, 2005

2005-02-02T01:03:00.000+11:00

Apollo Bay, 2005

2005-02-02T00:58:00.000+11:00

Apollo Bay, 2005

2005-02-02T00:56:00.000+11:00

Sovereign Hill, 2005

my 1st

2005-01-23T22:33:00.000+11:00

everyone has been asking me whats with my nick in msn.... MY 1ST... wakkaka... it realli makes them wonder..... ive been teasing my fren saying tt i just got MY 1ST baby.... n she believed it... can u imagine... prob no.... i din think she believed what i said.... but just acting gong... eniwei... yeah i just had MY 1ST nite at work last nite.... was working with mary taryn mark n jono.... was fun tho.... my first nite after being idle for 1.5 months..... still trying to remember stuffs but yeah im glad its thru.... n the boss now ask me to work for tuesday lunch n dinner.... i dunnoe whether i can make it.... but i just said yes to her... so i guessed i got to work.... its going to b a tiring day i guess... coz i hav to b there at 11am n finish 2.30am for lunch n dinner starts at 4.30.... i got onli 2 hrs break... i dun think i can make it home.... so i dunnoe what ill do... prob stay there hehe...... eniwei i still have one day to relax after a tiring soccer play... even tho for an hour but realli im still dead tired... coz last fri was playing soccer for 2.5hrs starting from 7.30pm till the sports centre closed which is 10 pm.... oh man... i realli felt it... i mean the pain bruises n tiredness.... then on sat got wake up quite early... coz got to take my bro to vic mart.... then work in the afternoon.... was realli2 dead tired... then earlier on.... my sis suggested to hav lunch in williamstown.... just to have fish n chips.... can u imagine???.... going all the way there just to have fish n chips.... eniwei since i love fish n chips... tt dusn bother me..... then we went to footscray to buy yong tofu... then soccer time.......

not sure bout myself....

2005-01-20T18:29:00.000+11:00

is this the best tt i can do??? or just being selfish???? niwae ive already done it... so no turning back.... yup its still regarding miss. C.... i guess you wouldnt b reading my blog again... so i guess i can pour out my mind.... eniwei what im doing to you.... is not a result of what im feeling rite now.... i got to lie to u for the benefit of u... seriously its for u... if u dun believe me then theres nothing i could do... i dunnoe what to say... but i hope there wouldnt b eni misunderstanding... seriously... i dun wan eni misunderstanding happening here...... i still **** u.... but i did this for u....

OKAY!!! THIS IS IT....

2005-01-14T01:54:00.000+11:00

alrite time to summarize what happened to me for the previous month i spent for my 'supposedly' holiday..... eniwei..... its great to know more about jakarta.... ok just to cut it short..... this blog actually is for someone, lets name it C... well i dun realli expect things to go this way...but C, please understand.... i think this is the best way for us.... n i hope ull understand... eniwei.... i cant explain what im going thru rite now here... but yeah.... i just hope ull understand.... ill miss u 4eva C....

Love != Lust

2004-12-21T09:25:00.000+11:00

loving someone with a motive is called lust

loving coz of appearance
loving coz of wealthloving coz of fortune
loving coz of ...... (u name it)they are called lust.....
true love comes from the bottom of your heart..
accepting the strengths and weaknesses of your loved one....
then there will be true happiness in your life.....

nb: emang enak di kacangin!!! huh :@

2004-11-28T11:24:00.000+11:00

Soccer 2004

2004-11-28T11:22:00.000+11:00

Soccer 2004

2004-11-28T11:20:00.000+11:00

Soccer 2004

2004-11-28T11:17:00.000+11:00

Soccer 2004

yyyyyyyyuuuuuhhhhhhhuuuuuu!!!!!!

2004-11-22T02:44:00.000+11:00

wah thank GOD my exams r almost finished... just one left the hardest one among all actually... hahaha coz i barely attended the lecture... thats y... hahaha one lecture out of 24??.... is that good enough... heheheh.... alrite.... exams r almost over but i dun realli feel excited about it.... dunnoe y..... going back to indo.... prob on the 1st.... but prob earlier..... not sure yet.... but this year is not lika any other previous years.... where i was really excited going back to indo..... this year i dunnoe i just dont feel like going back..... probably i go back just coz of my bro.... he nids to b accompanied later when coming to melb.... heehehehehe dun wan to offend him.... tts y im going back...... alrite enuf of tt...... ive been thinking of this lately..... frens come n go... ok.... when u learn to treasure frenship.... theres always somethin tt will break it.... or even demolish??...... ok i dunnoe what word to use but.... yeah..... it makes me wonder is there such a thing as a true frenship...... like in eni movies...... hhhmmm... ive not even seen tt in real life...... onli hear, hear and hear....... it just makes me thinking that theres no true frenship in this world..... just crap is all there is...... how am i supposed to believe in true frenship...... when i dun see one.... its just too damn hard u noe...... aaaarrrrgggghhhhh....... when i had enuf of it...... ill just stop wasting my time in building up frenship.... its just wasting my time........ better im sitting on my ass..... working on something else..... hhaaahahaa......

slowly picking up the broken pieces

2004-11-07T21:29:00.000+11:00

dunnoe what happen to moiself.... but yeah this sem i just felt slacking off...... dunnoe y..... coz of summer??..... coz of what happened recently??..... coz of June break??..... can b enithing but im just not sure moiself....... eniwei exams start in 4 days n great ive not even started revising.... im going to start now..... ok better get back to study..... but i just cant forgive moiself for what had happened recently....... ok for u that ive offended n if u read this particualr blog...... please forgive me n forget everything ok...... i dun ask much just pls....... forget about tt msg....... pls pls pls....... i beg u...... tts all i ask from u...... thx i hope u can fulfill my wish....

Love Of My Life

2004-11-05T11:29:00.000+11:00

Love of my life you've hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me
Love of my life can't you see
Bring it back bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know
What it means to me

Love of my life don't leave me
You've taken my love you now desert me
Love of my life can't you see
Bring it back bring it back
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know
What it means to me

You will remember
When this is blown over
And everything's all by the way
When I grow older
I will be there at your side to remind you
How I still love you I still love you

Back hurry back
Please bring it back home to me
Because you don't know
What it means to me
Love of my life
Love of my life

lost for words

2004-11-02T23:45:00.000+11:00

everything happened so fast.... i still can remember how it happened... seriously.... i still cant take it..... i mean i reallie dun wan to lose *******..... i noe its kinda hard... but i think i just have to learn to accept the fact.... reality.... that is killing me..... even thats the case.... ill still fight for it..... may b some ppl might say tt m crazy..... or over my mind..... but still ill still fight for my place..... i wun give up so easily...... ok was working earlier with grace n ian... haha... i was not myself todae..... was doing stupid mistakes that is realli2 making me look stupid.... but in fact i am... i am daydreaming..... hahaha.... ok three of us was talking about boy-girl relationship and we were asking our boss... hahaha.. can u imagin talking about this thing to your boss.... but eniwei..... shes very open minded.... i say....yeah then shes saying its totally diff the way we date and how she used to dater her hubbie..... yeah..... but ok bottomline is THAT IS NOT THE IDEA..... ok THAT IS NOT THE IDEA.... for me that is the big thing......

been exactly a month

2004-11-01T03:44:00.000+11:00

ok here it is ive been busy with uni... its realli kicking my back now... n great after all those times spent in da lab.... i got exam coming..... WHEN IS IT GOING TO STOP MAN??!!!... ok i dunnoe i just felt that this world is a really2 harsh n mad place to be.... im not saying enithing but i just observed it..... many different types of ppl living in this world..... some tough, quiet, soft, bla bla bla... but the truth is its good to see theres a mixture of each..... no serious..... can u imagine a world with uniformity??.... itll be realli2 boring man.... so its good if u meet mean, straight forward, flirtious type of ppl..... no im serious..... u may say its crazy then its this world tt u live in..... so u gotta live with it..... secondly is... ive been noticing the different culture tt ive got here in oz...... ok compared to singapore n indonesia..... its completely different.... im talking about the culture in da family..... its realli different.... i dunnoe how to explain it but ive experienced it...... thirdly ppl dun believe what u say until he/she experienced it him/herself.... its true.... ppl learn from experienced..... n they got their ego for not trusting other ppl..... they say "Sorry u r talking nonsense here.... I am right n You are wrong!!!"..... sorry this blog is realli different to other blogs...... but may b this will be my last blog...... ill c bout it.... ok im just stating all the points in life...... but i gotta tell u guys something LIVE LIVE TO THE FULLEST!!!!

My Thought

2004-10-01T20:59:00.000+10:00

been a realli rough week for me. there were more downs than the ups... seriously i cudnt take it enimore... i dunnoe whats wrong with myself...... i just cant get it over n done with..... seriously there are more out there but i prefer to stick this persistent one...... AAARRRRGGGHHH!!!!!.... i realli want to shout..... i think me n lish are in the same boat.... but theres diff to it though..... yeah.....im just tired of being myself...... seriously..... n i think i need to change... tts y i bough this book by rick warren..... its called "purpose driven life"..... enione reading my blog... i encourage u guys to read this book...... i just finish reading the first day material.... n i kinda get into the point..... seriously no regret of having this book....... pls read it...... i dun get eni commission for u buying this book.... but its for ur own benefit..... i was gonna say sumthing bad about life... esp my love life...... but then i thought again..... nah theres more to it..... i mean theres more in life tt i haven discovered....... n im praying tt u guys got the idea.... n mee too of coz :P

dunnoe what to do

2004-09-29T14:48:00.000+10:00

u noe what... somtimes when u expect things to happen... u realli want it to happen deparately... but then after tt thing happens... u dunnoe what to do next... well tts me....

Wonderful Day... YAY!!!

2004-09-25T10:05:00.000+10:00

yo been realli hard for me all days this week... dunnoe why but i juz talk to myself n tried to inspect myself.... haha other problems of course.... but yeah i dun wan to think bout it enimore... rite now.... im just heppi..... feeling great..... hope i can stay this way forever :D.... niwae i was chatting last nite... then wil asked me whether i could help him with newspaper delivery.... then i said yes... cos i cant sleep last nite... due to coffee n champagne.... so yach... i tot i might not b able to sleep... with constant pressure being put on my shoulder... i just got this thing tt keeps on spinning in my head..... reallie2 troubled... but then after wil said he wanted to me to help him with tt job... coz its his first time...... then i just said yes... n forced myself to sleep..... niwae yach.... i slept at around 2.30 am.... n he woke me up around 5.30 am... so i barely slept... but then i was realli heppi starting from the morning.... i guess its the fresh dew from heaven... hahah.... ya its great.... i think its pretty good start for the first day.... we got to travel more n know more of the neighbourhood..... but then we got to come back to the shop quite a few times to check whether the age has arrived..... so ya its wasting time.... but i realli enjoyed it... so when everything was going to be over..... wil looked for his licence but cant find it... he got panic n so was i... but then we got back to the newsagent to tell the BIG BOSS... tt we missed one the australian as we ran out of it... he said fine.... n wil was still panic coz of his licence.... so we tried to recall where are the possible places tt he might have dropped it..... then i asked him.... have u looked in ur wallet THOROUGHLY...... just as i said tt..... he found it..... wakakaka reallie man.... just makin ppl stressed out.... niwae... i love today... but now i got to slepp... got to work tonight..... i guessed its going to b pretty busy.... its the grand final of AFL.... so yach... got to recharge my energy.... wakaka....

Phoenix Resto

2004-09-22T01:12:00.000+10:00

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Thats how its done in aussie

2004-09-20T09:15:00.000+10:00

ok i got lots to talk about coz been 5 days since i last wrote my blog.... let me start day by day.... but please make sure u got time to read this if not then betta get back to ur stuf.... coz itll b long blog.... wakkakak......

Friday:
i played soccer then was supposed 2 b play badminton with hardy nik n his gf.... but then no one can replace me as goallie so got to play for about an hour then at the end i ask my fren to replace me.... so i walked to SARA while trying to call nik... no one answered.... keep on walking till SARA... reached there n then call him again... he picked up n said weve finished playing.... n i said O GREAT!!!.... so got to walk back again...ya then i spent the night at his place... he cooked us dinner.... n i got the photos of the food we ate.... ya so i went back after throwing away their rubbish at waterdale flat..... go home shower n then back to their house to do laundry... haha... so ya i stayed there....

Saturday:
woke up about 10.30... then played WE with wil n hardy..... then had mi goreng rendang... n bits of wil's fried salmon... watching TV while having the realli late breakie... u know what we watch... hahaa bugs bunny... so we laughed... n this is not just laughing... we realli laughed to the fullest.... coz its realli funny... hahah... so ya i brought back nik's car then get ready for work.... so when i reached work.... as usual prepare the ice n then prawn crackers n rice.... so ya... after we had our early dinner.... this fren of mine approached me n asked mi questions... hahah.... he was realli distressed..... realli.... he saw this gal/lady(im not sure) got run over by TRAM.... ok its TRAM not PRAM.... n he saw it LIVE... n tt realli freaks him out.... i was realli into his story tt i totally forgot bout the customers dining inside.... he was looking at me on n off..... coz i realli din pay attention to them.... n i was totally engrossed in his story... realli he was not himself... i realli pity him... but i cant do enithing... seriously.... just tok to him.... n since he was too distressed n tt was saturday... u noe resto can get realli busy on saturday.... i worried about tt.... but this saturday is different... its realli quiet.... i mean for a saturday... this is quiet.... n tts good for him... i tried to cheer him up by doing sumthing stupid... well not stupid but just by teasing the gals.... saying stupid stuffs...... n then grace came up with the word JAYUS... n she taught them... hahah.... its funny... so ya..... we end up closing at exactly 10.30... n off to hungry jack for our supper.... so jus ian mie fa mary n mi.... grace din want to come coz she got adrian waiting... so ya we went to hav supper..... n there we talked about all the things teenagers talk about.... haaha... from clubbing.... n other stupid stuffs.... hahaa..... seriously.... so we sat there till the shop closed.... then mie fa send mi home.... reached home.... look for my stats notes.... which i already kept two yrs ago... coz i did tt subject 2 yrs ago..... n i got this fren of my fren asking mi about it.... so got to dig out my piles of notes.... at the end i found it n refresh my memory about the subject.... then chat with her.... but cudnt help much.... then mie fa called to ask about her marks.... so ya.... end up sleeping at about 3.30 am...

oo ya i miss sumthing..... im realli sorrie to my fren.... she called all the way from indo.... on friday n saturday..... but i din hear it..... reallie2 sorrie :(...... then on saturday..... theres this table of 2... a couple....... they just got engaged..... reallie2 heppi day for them n memorial place to remember....... serious i was there 2 b da first to know..... coz i cleared the finished meals.... n then the guy asked me for dessert menu..... n i said ill get it for him.... then suddenly the lady struck me saying I JUST GOT ENGAGED... while pointing to the ring fitted around he finger.... so ya... being an international...... i cant get used to the way western say... i mean like they cant handle tt kind of situation..... but i cant.... i was lost for words..... dunnoe what to say..... so i just said.... wow tts good news...... n said congratulations to them while going away with the dirty plates...... ya reallie2 diff style of engagement..... as i noe in indo..... u got to prepare this whole lots of stuff before u got engaged..... but in western its totally diff..... hahaha....... so ya tts all i got to share with u guys... ill post my working frens soon......

die liao

2004-09-15T06:09:00.000+10:00

i cant believe myself staying awake till morning... its da first time for this sem... n this will continue till the end of oct... u noe me... always leave it till the last minute one... wakakka... i am awake till this hour its not coz i got nothing to do... but i got this accounting mid test... MAB... n as usual skipping lectures... n this is it... i got to burn the midnight oil... lol... niwae got to study again test in 1 hr 30 mins time... wish me luck k...

woah the time starts now....

2004-09-13T13:42:00.000+10:00

i think today is the day where i cant lose my concentration to eni other things except to my study... seriously i got onli about a month to do 5 of my assignment which i hav no idea about... yeah n i got this GAM assignment... as its name implies the assignment is all about making a game... no im serious we got to make a game... its a group assignment n great no one has even started thinking about it... even i got this fren whos jus doing a single subject for this one whole sem... until now... i still find disappointing frens where trust is realli2 down on my list when looking for fren... i think its better to b alone... yeah... n today i hope i can go to doctor... been facing this unpleasant itchiness in my head... n ozo the bleeding in my nose... its not as in the blood coming out of the nose... its juz when u clear the nose or when u insert a tissue in the nose... there will always b blood... i dunnoe y but seriously i hav to check it out... lol... ok lah i got to check the number of the medical centre n make an appointment... cao...

CJ Bday

2004-09-12T09:45:00.000+10:00

morning blog... i woke up like about 8 today... coz i promised will tt ill wake him up... so woke up... then go ol to read my daily bread... while my sis is on the phone with mum... i chat with will about this BGR thingy n then my sis came telling me tt she nids the phone... so got to dc... she calls mum in a hurry coz her bf is on the way... haha... so ya she talk for a short while n pass the fone to me... i talk to mum for about an hour... wow first time i can talk with mum that long... yeah she asked lotsa question... u noe when u get older the questions r different... not "have u done ur homework?"... its diff question man... haha... u guess... ya then she talks about cousins auntie... n other relatives... been nice talking to her... n then to my bro... been realli nice talking to them todae... n heard tt he had find 'the one'... haha... so i guess its my turn now... my sis got one... hes on da way... n me?... haha... another ten years... lol... ya its CJs bday todae... i dunnoe how old he is but yeah for me hes another fren :D... yeah so i got to finish this GAM lab n then wash my clothes... but i got to keep this in mind.... "JULZ U NID 2 B MORE ROMANTIC!!!"

wow.... its called satisfaction

2004-09-11T13:51:00.000+10:00

i think i got the idea why computer programmers... lecturers... or even tutors are reluctant in teaching students to about how to code programs... COZ IT TAKES ALMOST HALF OF THEIR LIVES MAKING THE PROGRAM... haha... no serious i tell u all ar... ive been sitting here since i woke up till now... doing this lab... ok its LAB... not assignment or project... n what im coding rite now is just trying to make this person go up the ladder... its really ridiculous man... but tts gaming... so u guys jus play the games... n we the programmers... are dying to make the games... lol... niwae... ya was too tired last nite... after the soccer training... realli2 dead tired n hungry summore... so end up sleeping early... well 12am for me is early... haha... ok... today im going to study MAB n work... i think tts all ill do todae... im not sure yet but ya... prob tts it...

:S

2004-09-10T09:35:00.000+10:00

i dunnoe man... whats wrong with me now... but seriously i dun feel good bout myself... LORD, CAN U HELP ME PLS??!!.... I REALLY NEED YOU.....

yes tts called PERFECT day!!!

2004-09-09T23:51:00.000+10:00

today was supposed to b like usual thursday... but sometimes things dont happen as what u expected... as usual thursday... i skipped the early class which is FNA... i dunnoe jus like skipping it coz the lecturer jus read from the lect notes which is already provided in the web... so yeah woke up like about 10am... then heat up the corn soup... while waiting i showered... wow the corn soup is realli nice... wakakaka of coz lah... i make one what... lol... ya lor... then my sis make boiled egg... wow its yummy she had 2 herself... im too full so end up onli ate 1... haha... cos i already had the corn soup... n muffin... then after the early lunch... go play comp... then my sis bf come... bring pudding... mango pudding... which i dun realli like... but got to eat it lah... i dunnoe i jus dun like mango... coz the smell makes me wanna puke... so its not his fault its the mango fault haha... theres 3 of them... u noe when u r full u cant eat all... then come my sis... why dun u finish it?!... i said im full n still trying to eat every single bit... lol... n guess what... she come with this leftover dessert... expecting me to finish... i think tts y no wonder i can get realli fat... waakka... well ya man... iv been like the 'rubbish bin' all along in my fam... no one wants the food... "ok juz giv it to julz"... lol... so ya end up like cant move in front of the compie... then she left for work... n i start looking for photos... haha... my collection... its kinda nice u noe... looking back when u were like 4 - 5 yrs younger... speaking of tt its been like 4 yrs since i graduated from sec school... cant imagine tt... its like i graduated yesterday... lol... after the photos... i look for this letter tt my fren had sent me in indo... coz i realli nid her address... its her bday at the end of the month... n im thinking of sending sumthing for her... lol... so ya after everythings done... comes the shocking news... oz embassy in jkt had been bombed... n some say tt indo ppl in oz r asked to go back... lol... tt realli shocks me... i ask confirmation from my fren in indo... n yeah its true... serious man... i was realli shocked... but cant do enithing much as i got to work... so end up in work thinking about it... n great... already the day is bad enuf... here comes the so-called "ready" trained waiter... hes quite new... energetic n enthusiastic... but not realli knowing what hes supposed to do... so end up being scolded by the boss... n so the boss started yelling at me as well... well what can i do... just say "YA"... n there u go what a PERFECT day!!!!

a totally diff day... :D

2004-09-08T23:57:00.000+10:00

woah first time eva man... i attend like 9am lecture n then finish at 6pm... wow first time... yay... used to skip many classes for the past month... but today was realli diff..... my sis bf was staying at my house coz he is sick... so he get to sleep in the living room... pity him... but i think tts better, theres heater in the living room...yeah i woke up like 5 to 7... got up... brush my teeth... then go down to cook some noodles.... for 3 of us... then had breakfast... then went to school.... it was MAB... woah... its as boring as i think.... but i think its ok.... hahaha.... some jokers were wrestling at the back... n the lecturer had to shout to stop them.... wakkaka... its funny man... how uni students still behave like a primary kids... lol... yah so after tt got a break... was staying in the lab with jac trying to create the champs league team for the fantasy thing tt helman ask me... then got CSS lecture.... hensen was sleeping during the lect... n got to wake him up... but its not as boring... then got FNA tute... its kinda fun... but as usual i came late... haha... then supposed to have ICS lect but i noe its going 2 b boring so skip it n had lunch instead in ping cafe... its nice... met rizwan, foundie fren... had lunch with him... n jac lim bob n mar was there as well... so i was talking with rizwan... bout school news n other stuff... lol... so yeah... after the meal he had to leave... but hes fun... even tho his age tells u the opposite... yeah n mar was suggesting to play ping pong... but i said its too exp to borrow the bat... as they were lousy n exp to rent... so we end up playing basketball.... hahah... my skill isn tt bad... after so long not playing... haha... used 2 b in the school team what last time... hahaha.... niwae yah was pretty tired.... then went to lab to do GAM... but still cant do it... then here comes the last lect... wow... looking forward to it... but still hes toking nonsense as usual... n finish 5 past 6... got to rush home... as i got to cook today... haha... my sis n her bf was from city.... so i cooked for my first time... black bean chicken n corn soup... but seriously not bad for first time chef... haha... yeah so tts it... was supposed to chat with frens ol... but as usual she will not go ol n not informing me... so got to call her n ask her what happened... haha... so ya end up talking to her like 1.5hrs.. wakaka... so heres my day... lol...

unexpected things do happen...

2004-09-07T23:50:00.000+10:00

haha.... juz finished my dinner n washing plates.... then do the GAM lab... this is crap... i did it in the lab n it was working... but when i upload it from home it doesnt work.... so end up hav to write the codes all over again... sigh... niwae yach... when i was about to start writing the codes... i tot i might msg my fren in indo... but then was about to press the send button... i got a call... tt i din expect... it shows no caller ID... in my mind this muz b vili... n there u go... i was rite... hahaha... so i called her back since its cheaper to call her instead of her calling me using her mobile... hahah... then will called me before i made the call... he said hes not coming... hes supposed to come to dye his hair... but it was late... n i said tomolo... so ya... then i call her... we talked about an hour... then i got to bathe... coz i dyed my hair n it was almost 11... hahah.... so got to bathe... dun wan to get rheumathic.... lol... ya todae was as usual... skipped CSS... then come to FNA tute but was 10 mins late... then the tutor reminded me of my attendance at the end of the tutorial... got a break... but was in the lab doing nothing before Ed came n borrowed the newspaper... then nic come to do GAM lab together as he did not bring his lab book... did the GAM lab alone as nic was lazy as usual... then will came rite before the lab ends... what a good timing it was... haha.. then had lunch in Pings... with will n KK... a realli funny name... but his real name is Kerebotswe... but preferred to be called KK... as his name is too long... from botswana... n hes realli nice... smart... n frenly... ya lor... then the GAM lecture was realli unbearable.... the most boring subject eva... hes toking as if we understood when no one understood... went to safeway to buy milk... corn... carrot...n muesli bar... corn n carrot soup is realli nice... try it... juz boil the corn n carrot... n put in some garlic... wow the taste is realli nice... ... yeah so tts it... got to walk home bringing the grocery.... but its good... a bit of exercise... haha.... alrite got to come for MAB tomolo... cant skip enimore... lol.... cao...

interesting day...

2004-09-06T23:20:00.000+10:00

its realli not like myself todae... was sleeping around 1am... but i still can wake up before 7... tts kinda rare... once in month... haha but hope tomolo can wake up early ozo... was thinking strange thing todae... as i was walking to school... tt takes about 25 mins... n was feeling like i was in sg... walking to skul... fresh air... but the diff is tt... it was realli cold... n walking in the pavement where the cars sped at 80 km/h... wow tts realli sumthing... haha... but i dunnoe... i was realli joyful todae... thank God for that... i did come for ICS... but tt only last me about 20 mins... its realli boring... n i realli cant stand chinese lecturers... haha... then come to the ICS lab... but not doing enithing... not realli knowing what to do... end up browsing the net... but before tt... ate at ping with jac... haha... he was complaining bout the PRO thingy... i noe its hard... bear with it jac... tts what i can only say... coz im not doing it... but prob im doing worst than tt... PRJ man... haha... well lets just keep my day heppi... lol... nitez...

well i guess tts it...

2004-09-06T01:45:00.000+10:00

wakz looks like shes not going to come online.... niwae.... its been nice waiting... chatting with mark, mr seah n fang2..... haaha n ozo knowing a bit about the latest news.... terrorist in russia... alrite then.... got to sleep... hoping tt i can be awake just in time for ICS hahahha.....

Be Patient....

2004-09-05T23:34:00.000+10:00

was supposed to wait for my fren to go ol at 12.00am..... well let c.... its already 11.35pm... hahaha niwae... was working in the resto.... its fathers day todae.... n i forgot to say heppi fathers day to my bos... wah... was planning to say it when he dropped me.... but totally forgot about tt.... ya lor.... the resto was busy..... n the tips was like $2.... wah.... tts realli little man.... i mean compared to the work..... but tt duzn bother me.... haha...... well what i learnt today was realli being patient..... hmmm..... i dunnoe why.... but tts what i got from todae... lol.... haha got ICS class n lab tomolo starting at 9..... been skipping the classes for like 4 weeks..... onli attend the first lecture n tts it.... hahaa..... then prob go to gym wif mie fa.... at 3.... but not sure yet... realli hav to get my body into shape.... i think im overweight now.... hahaha...... alrite betta read lect notes n some labs before bedtime.....

VIC - JULZ

2004-09-05T13:20:00.000+10:00

n this is how the story ends

2004-09-04T22:22:00.000+10:00

hahaha.... been struggling with personal problems for so long..... n now it just ended in like one chat with my sister... well not realli sister but i consider as a sister... lol... hahaha.... cant imagine that.... but was realli heppi.... seriously all my weights kinda lifted off me....... hahah..... yeah was supposed to study n read lecture notes but end up chatting.... well i think its worth it.... haha... ok lah..... been trying to sms my fren in indo... but i dunnoe whats wrong with her mobile...... it always says message not sent.... wah.... i think im not allowed to sms her... ahahha.... niwae....its already evening.... n theres still like few things to be done.... better finish it quick... haha.....

why why why???

2004-09-04T15:00:00.000+10:00

been listening to jay's song n guess what.... it realli comes true..... i mean im in the situation described in the song.... wah i dunnoe man.... is tt whats called..... what you believe will actually happen to ur life... hmmm is there such thin as coincidences??...... well for me i dun think theres such thing as coincidences.... well diff ppl hav different point of view.... niwae im supposed to study todae.... catch up the with the lectures... but end up chattig with fren.... n ozo dying my hair... hahah... first time eva.... ya n i chat to this fren of mine.... n she kinda made this irritating reply plus the word tts not even in my dictionary... i.e. foul words.... wah.... tt realli ruins my day... but then i got better chatting my old fren.... haahaa..... used to study with him in sg.... n its good to hear news from him.... n we cud share things.... coz we r on the same boat.... hahhaha .....

wow what a realli nice day...

2004-09-04T11:21:00.000+10:00

hahaha juz woke up..... well not realli juz.... around 2 hrs ago.... haha... ya i dun hav to work todae... so i got to relax abit.... but got to work tomolo though.... n its fathers day tomolo..... i hope its not going to b bz... haaha.... working with mie fa, grace n tarryn.... wakkkakak ill be the onli guy.... but yeah i think its fine..... gonna hav fun tomolo i hope... hahahaa.... ok lar got to read lectures tt ive missed..... well i supposed all tt ive skipped... lol....

y things has 2 b complicated

2004-09-04T03:18:00.000+10:00

i just called my fren last nite n was talking for about an hour or so... woah i donnoe what we talk about but its realli great..... but on the other hand...... the latest news tt i got was realli disheartening me...... i dunnoe why but actually the news was good...... ya lor.... niwae its been nice being kept up to date with the latest news.... especially the one from indo..... rather than the news in melben...... kinda boring..... yeah was realli tired after playing soccer..... but still i cant sleep.... i dunnoe whats the problem man..... or mei b i got insomnia..... woah i think tts the worst thing tt ever happen to me....... niwae ya tts all for now..... trying to force myself to sleep.... or else cant wake up later...... coz its actually 3am already..... hehe.....